I Can Fly
At least I could in my dreams last night. I can’t recall the last time I had a flying dream. But this morning I woke up and immediately remembered taking flight in my dreams. It was an incredible, exhilarating feeling. In the dream I was approaching strangers trying to convince them that I could fly. Then I would step back, push off, and soar into the sky, leaving them below with their mouths agape. Curious about the meaning, I searched several dream websites and found numerous interpretations—the most common being that the dream represents that I’m on top of a situation and that I have risen above something. It may also mean that I have gained a new and different perspective on things. Some feel that flying dreams and the ability to control your flight is indicative of your own personal sense of power.
On top of things? Risen above? Hmm, interesting. Perhaps there is some truth to that analysis. Just recently I successfully co-produced and directed fifteen people in my play, Sacrificing Simone, while at the same time promoting the first two books in my Cass and Nick Series, Married in the Nick of Nine and The Baby in the Window, while holding down a full time job and commuting 350-miles a week. In rehearsal three nights a week for six weeks, I barely had time to breathe and there were times I felt like the task was too large and that I wasn’t going to make it. But with prayer and belief in God, myself, and the wonderful actors I had been blessed with, I forged ahead. However, every time one situation was settled another would rear its ugly head, sending me back to Doubts Ville. Will we have the support we need behind the scenes? Will we have a set? Will it be built in time? What’s going on with ticket sales? What’s going on with lighting and sound? Where is he? We’re taping the show tonight. Unlike the meaning of my flying dream, I had no sense of power, if anything I felt powerless. It was not a good feeling, but I believe it was a much needed feeling. I needed a dose of “Let Go and Let God.”
During this process, I reflected on Luke 1:37 that says nothing is impossible with God. I’ve directed and produced before, but this time I was co-producing, so I had to depend on others and that’s not easy for me. Like most of us, I have been let down. People have not come through. When this happens, I’m inclined to do it myself. It’s easy to do it myself, because I know it will get done on time and correctly. What’s hard is trusting others and I believe God wanted me to experience trusting others, trusting him. How did I do? On a scale from 1-10, I’d have to say 3. What can I say; I’m a work in progress! Nonetheless, the play was a huge success, with all shows selling out and the cast received standing ovations. The Baby in the Window debuts next Tuesday and is expected to do well.
The past six weeks has been amazing, astonishing, anxiety-ridden, and a true life lesson. God will not bring you where he won’t keep you. Where there’s mission, there’s provision. No wonder I am flying. I made it. I soared above all the doubts and am now on the other side, looking back at how wonderful it all was and now looking forward to what God has next. I love that I will have an opportunity to learn more, trust more, and believe more.
Question: Have you been taken out of your comfort zone lately and if so, how did you fare?